Sunday, November 23, 2003

--Yayyy--

Yayy!! IM GOING OUT WITH JOSH HAYHURST! YAY! HAPPY! SO HAPPY! HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPYY JOY JOY!!

I dont care if you cant bare the sight ::ahem:: Anthony. I dont care. But yeah, im happy and ive wanted to go out with him for hella long too.

silent_star | 11/23/2003 07:57:00 PM

Friday, November 21, 2003

--Sorta my day--

ok .. heres why:

Pro's:
-Got my tape chosen for Northbay Honor band. I dont care if i make it or not .. Im happy enough that my tape got chosen.
-Im not with robert.
-I dont have to worry about a relationship.
-I get to flirt with all the single guys.
-Played a great game of basektball
-Got a 90% on my rollercoaster thingy, even though my partner and i kept arguein and we only had 4 minutes to sart our roller coaster

Con's:
-I think robert is miserable now. Hes now untidy and people keep telling me that hes pissed off at people. Gosh, you guys dont knoe how bad i feel right now.
-something that will take a long time to type .. just call me or im me if you want to knoe that badly
-band. Please stop telling me that Anthony played better than i did. I'm doing the best i can, and im not a real drummer anyways .. im totally amatuer.
-Had to bare robert's face throughout 6/7

silent_star | 11/21/2003 03:55:00 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2003

*test*

silent_star | 11/20/2003 07:00:00 PM

--sigh, im high, lets fly, say bye--

^Yeah, i made that up right there, its stupid, but its okay with me.

Todays tiring. Dont you think so? So yeah, I think I'm going to break up with robert tamarra b/c i flirt with too much guys when im with him. Cause it doesnt even feel like im going out with him. Frankly, I think its the best for him b/c of my flirting.

So yeah. So today was spirit day for us eighth graders. It was great. I think we should win b/c i think, we put so much effort into our spirit day. I guess the 7th graders put effort in to it too .. but they dodnt have such a windy day. Do you knoe how much trouble he had putting those things up? It was fun though b/c teehee had me in a stunt to put more tape on a poster. People are sayon that i like him again. ... and .. no, i dont. And i wont lie on my website. And people are asking me if i like anyone, i say no, and they say stop lying, really who do you like. Is it impossible for me to not like anyone? I mean, yeah, i flirt with guys like, a lot .. but it doesnt mean i like them.

Uuugghh. I have two freakin blisters in the same place at the back of my foot. (sorry for the info) but, it kinda hurts .. but a little bit though. and i dont knoe how to break up with robert 2morrow, and i need to take tylenol. byebye.

silent_star | 11/20/2003 04:49:00 PM

Monday, November 17, 2003

--problems as usual--

So hey. My dad and I are in a fight right now cause ... i need to record downstairs b/c this computer is downstairs and the metronome is online. So yeah .. i asked my dad if he could go watch in his room ( yeah .. hes got a freakin tv in his room and he just happens to watch football with the 48 in tv. ) he just gave me his angry face and yeled .. cant you record in your room! I told him that this metronome is online and i need to set the tempo to 92 b/c i dont knoe what 92 speed is. I dont think he listened to me though. He said after this quarter .. psh. Most likely at the end of the 4th .. and its like what .. the 2nd quarter? I'm not sayin this in a mad expression .. im really saying this all in a tired voice, I dont understand .. y cant he just go in his room? I have more stuff to do too. Spirit week, hw, family, school, people and their damn critisicm.

Yeah, the people of todays society. Rumors spread fast. Like, today, i must of heard about 20 people whispering " Yeah, shes goin out with robert, no, he asked her. Robert goes out with everyone." and blah, blah, BLAH!and i was right beside them too. uugghh. it just really, truly burns me when people say something about my life, people in it, or points things that i do out specifically. and to some people this is all funny too. I would give robert this website address, but, I dont want him to knoe all the stuff that goes on in my real life. I'll just show my happy side that i show w/ friends. And whenever i pass him during periods .. and i dont say hi or anything .. please, dont point it out. I think there's a reason for my not saying hi. Hmm .. maybe it's b/c everytime I try to talk to him or hug him .. there are my friends .. or people .. taunting me, snickering, pointing at me, whispering in someones ear, and yeah. I only want to go through that experience 1ce in my life .. but it happens to me once every period. I'll deal with it i guess. I cant take it though. Thats why I volunteer for so many things, like in spirit week, i do it just to get my mind off things. Anything to get it out of my head. gosh i have so much to talk about .. but i dont want for ou all to say shut the fuck up to me .. or get a fucking life .. or suck it up. Yeah .. if you say suck it up to me ... just .. dont. Cause i already do. Everyday you see me .. im sucking it up every second. Wow .. long post .. oh well.

silent_star | 11/17/2003 06:30:00 PM

Saturday, November 15, 2003

The best way to cheat ..



Sorry guys .. maybe another way

silent_star | 11/15/2003 10:09:00 PM

last test! I swear!

silent_star | 11/15/2003 06:19:00 PM

test 4

silent_star | 11/15/2003 06:17:00 PM

test 3 ( I knoe .. a lot of tests .. but this blog is under construction)

silent_star | 11/15/2003 06:11:00 PM

test 2

silent_star | 11/15/2003 05:58:00 PM

test

silent_star | 11/15/2003 12:20:00 PM

Friday, November 14, 2003

--im tired of it already--

dammit, im fucking tired of this damn relationship already. I reeaally want to give it a shot though. But the damn people. I hate it. I seriously fucking hate it. Like Mike C. is all sayin that he knows shit about me. He doesnt knoe anything about me anything. Hmm, let me pick out all the people that say differ about this damn relationship .... brandon, sheletha, aljanee, janiya, mike C., Brandon G. , Becca .. and much more people. God dammit, i just want to puch a wall, or this screen. And, there are many, many cons that i found out about him. But i want to get to knoe him better. Oh God, i hate relationships, absolutely hate this. Please for all of man kinds sake, do not comment on this or type something on the tagboard. I reaalllly cant take this anymore. Let me just get this clear to some people, I will not brake up with him.. unless i want to (or him, whichever comes first) I am not braking up with if you tell me to or if it was your "plan".ahhhhh!!! I'll just .. do something right now. I guess ill sleep or work on something, anything to get my mind off today and the people i have talked to.

silent_star | 11/14/2003 03:30:00 PM

Thursday, November 13, 2003

--ahhhhh!!!--

robert asked me out! Robert Godfrey! uugghh. -_- I dont knoe what to think. I am flattered, but i dont like him. I dont even knoe him. I want to get to knoe him though. God, my mind is so scrambbled right now. Maybe I should go out with him. See what its like to have him as a bf. whatever .. i gotta tak to my advice man .. see ya. Oh yeah .. please comment on what you think i should do. I dont want to make this choice.

silent_star | 11/13/2003 05:09:00 PM

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

--hey--

Hey peoples. Ya knoe .. people in my lit class are veryyyyy rude, mean, etc. Not to me .. to other people. And (sorry if i might offend people by this) its mostly all the rapper people. Like, this person (who will remain named "person" in this post) read slow and every rapper person laughed, faked cough, etc. It was truly a hard thing to see. It was horrible for the person. I dont think the person knew it though. I felt soo sorry for the person.

So yeah, that was just my thought. Oh, and Vintea stole my fuckin pencil. i dont care though, i have another one. Why do people steal each others pencils? Honestly, its childish. Stealing pencils ... nice .. psh. So yeah, tamarra i got cg. Man, Iv'e been really sleepy lately. I think it's the weather, but i just dont take naps .. dont knoe why though. But yeah, me being relaxed is great. That's why i absolutley love cold weather, b/c I actually relax, and relaxing i dont get much to do. I thimk i have homework .. or, 1 peice of homework .. so ill do it right now.

silent_star | 11/12/2003 06:49:00 PM

Sunday, November 09, 2003

-- screw it .. "someone", this post is especially for you --

ok, i can't be online too long because i have homework .. so the slappin starts tammamra ya guys. Yeah, im not going to be mean to "someone" .. i'll just simply state the obvious to him or her. So yeah .. "someone" i did say that my dad ruined this post. I was going to list all the people i hung out with but .. well, i already explained it to you. Fine .. if you reallly want me to put all the people i hang out with what their purposes are for me, then ill do it in someother post. But, i dont see why i must state out my purposes for my friends .. b/c they all have the same purposes .. but some of my friends just might express more of what i want to talk about. Yeah .. must go .. HOMeWOrK!!

silent_star | 11/09/2003 09:54:00 PM

Friday, November 07, 2003

-- thoughts --

Hey people! What's up? Im in a good mood right now, b/c i finally can rest in my house. No arguein. Ahh .. i love the sound of silence. You people have ta start slapping me when i miss assignments now. In the arm. Only. B/c i really need to start raisin up my grades. B's arent good enough for me. I cant be captain b/c i might quit. I need to start being responsible. Mature. And accept what I have to do an deal with. I didnt just realize this now, Im just now enforcing this. Ya knoe, Im havin this talk with lindsey and shes exactly like me. She doesnt cry, a lot of people have left her (as in movin), sisters are in colorguard, we both dont get attached to people for certain reasons, and a lot more. Its really weird, yet a little bit cool b/c i have some one to talk to and knoe what I have been through.

Am i really slutty? Im sorry. I dont try to be. I mean, I just wear what i can find and its just tank tops and hoochie stuff b/c its all my sister's. Ill stop. Dont worry, though. Anthony and I are going to go shoppin together. Hes going to pick out my clothes b/c he said he doesnt like my shirts. That would be interesting. My taste against his. Like .. Anhony would probably pick vintage things, and ill go into like Styles and everything. <-(not all of their shirts are hoochie for some of you have never set foot in there ) Im shure we'll decide on one shirt though
( Keyword: ONE ) :: yawn :: very tired right now. i think this post is too long .. ill stop. Right ....... n....o...w.......a. se ya!^-^

silent_star | 11/07/2003 09:02:00 PM

Monday, November 03, 2003

-- a word to my fellow friends --

anthony- intelligent. my "advice man ". my voice of reason. and if i want to have an intellectual conversation .. i turn to him. ( hope you get better ) a person who has done almost everything in his 13- year life

lin- my dancing buddy! my person to turn to when i need to talk about some femonism. person to talk to about relationships.

jen- coooooolllll person. person to talk to when im hyper, or tired. mostly hyper. fun person

teehee- sweet. compassionite. a person who can just make you laugh a lot, even when your in the crappiest mood ever.

brian- umm ... hes just .. there. haha .. j/k brian. hes my person that entertains me and gives out preverted visions.

josh- hes my person to talk to about my taste in bands. he likes the same type, style, and bands that i do. hes cool.

yeah, my dad just totally ruined my post. Hes lecturing me on why i "disobey" orders. Mmmhmm, yeup, ive heard this lecture about 20 - 50 thousands of times. " why do you disobey " disobey my fucking ass! whatever ... g'night folks!

silent_star | 11/03/2003 09:59:00 PM

testing 1,2,3

silent_star | 11/03/2003 07:35:00 PM

Sunday, November 02, 2003

--- !!!!!ahhhh!!!!! ---

SO HAPPY!!! DRUMLINE IS STARTING THIS WEEK!!!My cousin Carlo<- ( yes, for those of you who didnt or dont knoe, carlo is my cousin, my real cousin. he instructed the bells last year and will be instructing the bells this year ) just imed me and told me that drumline might start this tuesday!! :ahem:: his bday. and lin, sorry, but if drumline does start this tuesday, i wont be in the guard practice. and i dont care if nanni, or kelsey, or bianca gets all pissed at me .. b/c i might quit it anyway. ( carlo is working it out on the practices for drumline, cause i told him that i was on the guard ) brian, i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry that you cannot try out for drumline! i knoe, and everione else knoes that last year in drumline, you were hella dedicated, and great, and soo talented!! youll be able to do it though, ill work it out w/ matt and carlo. yes, im soooo excited that its finnaallyy starting! then ill show everyone! what im made of w/ my tenors! oh my gosh! i get to go to bed w/ a happy thought!! ahh i love this day! this is a great way to start my week! oh and jen .. plleeaassee do not 4get my back pack 2morrow!

silent_star | 11/02/2003 09:17:00 PM

Saturday, November 01, 2003

--hey--

ill type about my holloween in another post .. i just wanted to say that my new aim sn is petalz1x2pnai. yeah .... this is actually my sistersold sn .. i cant create a new aim sn for some reason. oh .. you create the multiply sign with just the letter x. yeah .. i had trouble figuring out how you make the multiply sign.

silent_star | 11/01/2003 11:40:00 AM

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

--im done--

im done liking teehee. i was thinking about him and guess what? .... nothing .... so happy! now i dont care who he likes, what he does, who he flirts with, or who he goes out with. great, now i need someone to like. any suggestions?

yeah .. i made rifals. now i dont knoe what to do. b/c of drumline. and giving up drumline until vanden is not an option for me. b/c drumline is like my family. yeah, just wanted to clear that up. oh yeah, holloween. yeah, im goin to frightfest. and i have to carpool with brian and teehee. BRIAN AND TEEHEE. yes, it will be desasterous. b/c i dont think brian likes me .. i dun knoe, maybe, maybe not. i dont care. all i care about is my friday. i dont think teehee wants me to carpool with him though. b/c hes all like, cant you ride with us jen? yeah, if he doesnt want me to ride with him, then fuck him. i dont knoe what his fucking problem is with me.but if he does like me (as a friend) then, yay. that means i dont have to worry about a person hating me. poo, is this too long? ill just stop typing right now.

silent_star | 10/28/2003 08:32:00 PM

Monday, October 27, 2003

--hey--

im just going to stop writing long entrys. ill save your brains and eyes. yeah, ya knoe? there are too many secret phrases. like, you have to be there, in order to it to be funny and make sense. its confusing though, not knowing what you people are talking about. whatever. yeah, my comps assembled now (obviously), and theres a 48 inch tv in my living room. my living room is all rearranged, ill adapt to it. yeah, ya knoe, again, if brian and teehee go to the frightfest .. then i have to carpool with them -_- great, in between and ex ( that i like only like a little bit now) and brian. brian. BRIAN! (hehe, j/k brian) but yeah. itll be akward, but i can live with it. makes sense though, b/c if i leave lin or ant in the car w/ them, one of them is going to end up dead, and the other person bruised from lindsey imaginitve rifal that she carrys at her side, just in case. and if anthony goes, then one peson will end up dead, and one person will end up ... umm ... stabbed ... from anthonys drumsticks that he carrys for that "special" occasion. Am i writing too much? what do you think? oh yeah, drumline .. or colorguard. choose. just choose. i might listen to your choice for me .. but as for now, i cant even make a choice for myself. so choose. night-night. going to bed. ( yes .. i can sleep now .. maybe not everyday, but its close )

silent_star | 10/27/2003 10:08:00 PM